I couldn’t wait to have my husband’child. We has experienced loss…in one year we went to six funerals of close friends, siblings, children of family, etc. it was surreal to experience so much loss in such a short time. Losing a family member is something you don’t get over, you can’t fill the hole. Going to a child’s funeral is something that stays with you for the rest of your life. Having a child, building our family was something good we had looked forward to for a long time. It gave us some good…after so much bad.