I did my best to repair the damage done to my heart. I had alot of emotions and all very real. After the shock, sadness, anger and hurt settled…I was able to find contentment.  It wasn’t an unhappiness that I felt or even an emptiness but rather some what of a numbness. I lived life, loved my husband, raised my family but had one part of my heart that remained numb. Not in a sad depressing lonely way but more of slightly unfulfilled way. I didn’t feel resentment towards my husband at all for wanting a separation but I also wasn’t able to fill the last little corner of my heart completely with love for him anymore. The love for him was there, but my heart could no longer be completely filled with love. This later will be the catalyst to our marriage ending.