Be the constant…be the one that is the same…the one does not change. I am not expected to be the variable in my marriage…I am expected to be the constant. I am the solid, the backbone, non-changing, dependable factor to my husband. When your spouse is broken, you are expected to not “fix” them but to be their constant. This is usually pretty easy for me. I am strong, I am whole, I am not broken. Yet, never being the variable can be exhausting. I have no emotions that are allowed to alter, no emotions allowed to upset me, no emotions allowed that show hurt. I am to be the constant. I am tired.