I began my relationship with my current man, after my divorce, with four young children, ranging ages 3-9. Then after a long divorce, a new relationship, a year long affair of infidelity ending with my new man having his first born with another woman, I had a fifth child in my soon to be family. We had always spoken of marriage, we made it through the infidelity, and now somehow, I survived the birth of my man’s first born from another woman. I thought getting through the affair was difficult! Until you have seen your man, who you believed you would be the first to bore his first born, be by another woman’s side during pregnancy, birth, and after, which is something that no one should have to bear, you have not felt a pain in your heart like this one.