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All these years later, are you the man I fell in love with but have just lost who you are? Or did I fall in love with the image of a man that you put forth? I fell so desperately head over heels for you… So completely, so unconditionally. Did I find a good man that was true to his word or did I find a man who struggles with his own moral compass?
Lapse in judgement is what we chauked it up to be but I am wondering if it stems deeper.
Are you insecure? Are you unhappy? Are you unsatisfied? Or are you a liar? Were these behaviors a reflection of your character or an imperfection in your decision.
Irregardless… The pain is the same. Irregardless… The confusion is equivalent. Irregardless… The damage is extensive. So why ask? Why understand?
I am wanting to know so instead of spending a lifetime of looking over shoulder with you, I began picking up the pieces without you.
Or do I forgive? Or do I love without regard? Or do I stay with the strength needed to heal with you?